Saturday, 19 February 2011
The title says it all now doesn't it? I am in therapy, I am trying to get better. In the times that I wasn't online anymore.. Things have gone downhill, horribly downhill.
I nearly attempted suicide for eating a sandwich, I threw up after drinking a glass of water, even though it was the only thing I had that day and I know it's bullshit.
I'd gone completely psycho. and that's when I decided that I was in need of help, some serious help. So I've been to the doctor and we are now busy with my therapy plan and shit like that. They tapped off some blood and the results are not as bad as last time.
I am not allowed to be on here, I am not allowed to stay in touch with any of you. Fact is, I can't go through this alone. I'm crying my eyes out every single day, I'm possibly more suicidal than I was before, but I can only hope, that things will get better.
SO if you don't think that I am a horrible cow, what I am thinking right now, and a weak bitch, also one of the many thoughts that keeps popping up.