Once upon a time there was a girl with an eating disorder trying to find a balance between the good and the bad. She has to deal with the evil demons inside her head, dragons roaring in her stomach, dwarves, giants, fairies and tons of guys pretending to be the knight in shiny armor.
Friday, 31 December 2010
Happy new year
Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right.
Happy New Year everyone, a new year for all of us to reach our goals, to start with extreme fasting and dieting after the horrible holidays where temptation seemed to rule our lives, food our worst enemy surrounded us.. But the new year also means that the holidays are all over, and the food, the temptation. All of it has vanished.
New Years Eve is a time for parties, for just having fun.. Having the time of your life and just enjoy things,because you know that as soon as it's the first of January, you have to be right back on track. You have to be focused, nothing else but focused. If you screw up at the beginning of the new year, you will be less determinate, less motivated, so make sure that you watch your every move.
So my achievements of 2010:
*Get below the 45 kilograms (Which is something like 99.2 LBS)
*Get in and out of therapy (not sure why this is an achievement but okay)
*Pass my school year
*Start a blog and dive into the Ana community
*Fall in love
*Get rid of the good girl image
So this means that, in the last year and a half I have lost more than 17 kilograms (= 37.5 LBS), I have finally become the person I want to be, I am finally almost graduating which means I can get out of this hell hole I call home.. I finally found someone who loves me..
Life is going great!
My goals for 2011:
*Get below the 40 kilograms
*Stay out of therapy, hospitals, anything like it
*Pass all my ALVLS and graduate in style
*Get accepted at the University of Groningen
*Finally get things official with M.
Sounds amazing, not too hard to achieve. Hopefully things will work out this year :D
What are your goals in 2011? :)
I can't wait for the new year to begin, a new year, a new dieting plan, new days of fasting, new parties, new friends, new clothes and hopefully smaller sizes.
I want to be a size zero, I have to somehow get to the size zero.
ah well, I better get ready for the last day of work of the year, after that I'm going to enjoy some firework show which my boss has arranged... Get home, have fun with the family, and after that me and my friends are heading out to the pubs to get absolutely wasted.
I'll allow myself 800 calories today, just because tomorrow is an all fast day, and on Sunday I'll fast as well since I will be home alone for almost the whole weekend.
Last but not least I want to thank everyone for being there for me, for supporting me and for making me feel better with every single word that's been written down.
My dearest followers, my lovely friends, I wish everyone the best for the new year. I wish all of you all the love, luck and happiness in the world, because you have made me feel all those things in the past year.
Thank you for sticking with me in 2010, hopefully I will all see you blogging, commenting and losing in 2011!!