Once upon a time there was a girl with an eating disorder trying to find a balance between the good and the bad. She has to deal with the evil demons inside her head, dragons roaring in her stomach, dwarves, giants, fairies and tons of guys pretending to be the knight in shiny armor.
Tuesday, 24 August 2010
I believe that water is the only drink for a wise man. ~Henry David Thoreau
Our body consists of water, we drink water. We shower, we couldn't live without water. So today I tried living with just, water. And I managed.
Liquid fasting has never really appealed to me as I don't like to drink at all, I usually forget to drink since I usually don't feel like I need it.
Today the one thing I did was drink, icecold drinks and warm drinks, glasses of water and one glass of juice. I am still not sure if I like it, because for some reason I still feel full.
I don't feel empty at all, there is no hunger, there is nothing that gives me the feeling that I have done a great job other than that I have to pee- all the bloody time.
My parents are starting to get used to the fact that I only eat vegetables, they are too busy with all the things that are going on in our lives now that they forgot about me.
Honestly, it's the way I like it.
My sister has gotten an offer to play Softball in the States, as in. To go to college there, they'll possibly pay for her stay, her school and all that kind of bullshit. So she might be leaving in the fall. I am thrilled for her, it's a great opportunity and she's so talented. She could learn so many things she wouldn't be able to learn here, she would have these amazing experiences and so much fun.. So hopefully we can arrange things for her so she can do what she loves to do.
It'd also mean that I will live alone with my parents for a while, which can be either a great or an awful thing. What if they will suddenly notice things again? What if they'll go through my stuff like last time? Not sure if I can handle that, another few months visiting my doctor on daily basis, therapy and constant being forced to fail.
One more cup of tea before bed I suppose.. Oh any recommendations on new blogs? I love the ones I read right now but I was wondering if any of you had any amazing blogs I should read!!